jollibee dexter's lab kiddie meal

last nyt, after a call at the house, and after PBB, my sis and i decided to go out and have dinner at around 1130pm...we jst finished eating polvoron and inipit and twas wasnt enough...i craved for chicken but since KFC in capitol is already closed, and since i wanted to have the jollibee dexter's lab toys, we went to jollibee at raintree mall :)

we both ordered burger kiddie meal, jst for the sake of the toys and two piece chicken for us...we were so excited
on the toys that after it was given to us, i immediately wore the watch and checked on the spy kit...ahaha..

we talked about our lovelife over dinner...she was ranting about her situation with her bf/ex/whatever and i was talking bout mine...

my sis is asking what should she be doing to her bf...they were not able to talk about their relationship anymore..she told the guy that they'd end it up but the guy doesnt want to...their relationship seems to be going nowhere...they rarely talk or text and meet....for me its unfair..and i do not agree with the idea that she would simply end it without talking and suffer...she would continously exchange text messages and still feel bad about it...

with our conversation, i have learned something...something which i also realized after reading maui's blog...

i realized that no matter what, no matter where, no matter how, the one who invest too much emotions on some1 oron that relationship or the one who actually hopes too much and the one who love too much is the one that is at lost...most of the time, its the girls..its the girls who is actually transparent, its the girl who shows and invest so much emotions and eventually gets hurt...and its always the girls whom we can always see crying..

i actually dnt knw wid the guys...they seems so good in hiding what they are feeling coz they always appear unaffected, no hurt, no pain, no worries, and we sometimes cant even feel their love..

guys has a lot of ways on showing their affections...some in words, some in actions, and some in ways that we completely neglect or have thought of to be nothing...

while writing this, i actually wanted to grasp something...i actually wanted to realize another thing to decide on something and at the same time, be able to actually understand someone and the situation we are into...

i cannot understand why guys have to be secretive, unpredictable and so stubborn...i wonder how they manage to hide what they actually feel and act nothing...well, i guess i will just have to live with that...

i have actually decided to confront, when i think it is actually time to..make guys understand that we, girls, are actually fond of hoping, of doing so much assumptions, of thinking and exaggerating..ehehe..simple things for us are actually made complicated..and little things to us are actually made bigger..girls love attention, surprises, we love being pampered and being flattered...in short, we always wanted to feel loved and not neglected...

my point is? loving someone, be it the opposite sex or friend or family, requires one to get hurt in the process...but for me, nothing beats the saying: "love like you'll never get hurt" for me, one truly loves f she gets hurt even by jst little things coz its actually a sign that she actually really cared...but getting hurt and being martyr is actually different...love all you want, but still we nid to open our eyes to the reality...there would be times that its actually too much and its time to stop, think and think more f its still correct to be like that...we love sincerely and we actually deserve to be respected at least...i think its no longer right f one loses respect and the respect of other people jst trying to reach out for the one they love...

just one thing for me, love all your heart, do everything, and when u can say that u actually have done everything, and yet it seems like ur already being stupid; stop, talk to the person, and move on...i cannot say stop loving coz loving alone for me is still such a wonderful feeling...even f it is not returned....but continuously showing that person even if you're looking stupid is i think no longer ryt..

honestly speaking, i am guilty of being martyr...but this past few weeks and these postponed event that ive been wanting to happen makes me realize something....i would be loving with all of my heart...that is my decision...but this time, i dnt knw f i can do it, but i think, i will no longer hope too much, and expect too much so i wont get hurt...and if i feel that its no longer ryt, i would have to talk to that person and tell him what i feel...things have been a little unfair for me...and i guess he deserves to know it...and jst like what someone said: "not to agree on a compromise coz im afraid to lose him" he is actually ryt...

;)

This relationship will be treated as if it's the last one and i will treat every moment as is it's the last day