burrying myself to work(January 22 post)

this is what i do to help myself not to think of something..

i am not in my proper state of mind today i think...but, i successfully finished coding(or so i thought)
which means, i managed to concentrate on my work despite of everything

last nyt, while i was finishing our video, i received a phone call from nanay saying that they admitted tatay coz his blood pressure is so high...i guess it was another stroke attack...
but look at me, i am still so engrossed with video editing while the thought is going through my head.
why? because i do not want to entertain the thought and i do not want to fear the pain...

this morning, i woke up early to prepare something which will eventually go to waste
but look at me now, i read a story from the email which made me decide differently and even manage to smile

and now, i havent noticed that it is already 6pm, i have submitted my code for review earlier at 330, and is now setting up something...
i guess work is a very good therapy for a bothered person...
im grateful i was able to have focus on it...

im learning how to be fearless...
no, i have learned how to neglect my feelings that is...

i know my father will be fine...
and for the something which i made this morning?
the something which i really forced myself to wake up early despite sleeping late?
what the heck if he doesnt care! damn! i do! =)