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being a good friend is hard...

i had a friend whom i have known for several years now..i can say she has been very sweet and dear to me...she has been my sister on my second home...we shared a lot of things, a lot of activities, a lot of talks, heartaches and laughters...she has been someone whom have always been the first person i will talk to, and tell about anything that happens to me...she has been the first person that i will go out and invited whenever i wanted to do things..despite the fact that she has lots of friends, she never failed to be there for me..

but i guess, things has changed due to certain circumstances...
i, myself was guilty why this has happened...i let things be, and forget about what has actually we have shared before, which is our friendship...

something happened which created a gap..and i never did exerted any effort to fix it, but instead, i let it be...

i did it because, i was hurt with the way things has happened and how it affected us..we are both into a situation where we knew we might not be thinking so well, thus it affected our decision...

no talks has happened, no explanations were given and we let things be...everything changed...

i decided to have a talk..the explanation i have been wanting to hear and my side is ready to be given but it never happened...i guess, it never meant to happen...

i was trying to compose a letter but, my mind was not actually into it...

i guess, i will let time do it...

i was hurt by what she did making me move away, even if there have been instances that we can get closer again..i can see the effort, but i was never moved, nor touched but instead i am still hurting...i guess this was because, i never heard her side of story...

i am trying to understand and forget what has happened before..but while i am on the process of doing it, i would like to apologize if i cannot accept you right now...i was still hurt, but i am recovering...i am your friend, i was still your friend, and i will always be your friend because that is what we all are to each other...