bad news

jst received some bad news from home...

last week, i remembered nanay texting me that lola's been doing bad...she's always sick...they brought her to the hospital last time, though not admitted...a few days later, she texted me that she admitted lola to the hospital coz she's not eating well...she told me that its nothing really serious..but still, im beginning to worry...i do not like those kind of news...i hate hearing that people are sick especially those close to me...

nanay said that they wont be staying long at the hospital...they are jst going to have the ultrasound and we will
know how she is...they might be even going home...but jst now, i received her text telling me that there was home problem with my lola's kidney..there is going to be another exam or laboratory to be performed...

i jst feel bad..i wasnt there and i wanted to be there...i hate it when i heard those kind of news and then feel like i cant do anything about it...i hate it when i hear those kind of news and then think of what will happen next...i knw she is old...and the thought of losing her is still unbearable...

few weeks from now and it's going to be christmas..i dnt want her spending it in the hospital..i dnt want her ill
during those times....

but well i think, i jst have to accept the fact that things come and go...people comes and leave...i hope ill be ready

for it...no, i hope its still not the end...