in grief

its 1223 here...
been waiting for my sis to be online...dnt want to stay alone in my room not talking to anyone...i desperately needed someone to talk to...to cry with...

i wanted to scream..i wanted to cry and cry and cry.....

i dnt understand why she did not wait for me...i wasnt able to give her the watch that she asked for as pasalubong...that was even the first thing i bought when i arrived here...

i wanted to go home but i know if i would go home the pain would still be the same...

i knw this is soon to come but the reality of it is simply unacceptable...why it has to be now when i cant easily go home...

i just talked to her last friday...