stranger

no internet in the office today..and so...i am bored...i cant surf...that is why i have been writing on my notepad for blog entries :)

going to the topic, since last last week, my officemate has resigned and her cublicle is now occupied by a japanese who is on business trip here for the new project...

i just feel awkward because i always have to pass by his cubicle eveytime i go to the cr, or get water at the pantry which i usually do together...i would get water everytime i feel the urge to pee...

and it is already a habit since i wanted to drink water always so i would also go to the cr always..

haayyyy.....

family

i was really successful last sunday. i planned on going to church early to grab a good seat and at the same time to have some time alone and think...

during the mass, i always observe people. friends, lovers, families, siblings, or even one person who is alone...i wanted to observe them especially the family with babies or kids with them and wish that soon i will be doing that with my family too. most of the time the church is crowded and some people or group of people or families would just stand outside...

there was one family standing on my left side. there was their mom, their dad, an elder brother and a younger sister. the mom was just standing there concentrating on the mass..next to her is the dad and in front of the dad is the girl..the dad corrected the posture of his daughter..

and then i remembered my father used to tell me that i should practice good posture always...that is because i am tall and it does not look good if i a slouch.

well, reminiscing the past...and dreaming that i am having a family of my own to...

hmmm.. :)

is it wrong for a child...

yesterday i went to church..as usual alone..
anyways, i was home at around 2 in the afternoon...i fixed some things..and at around 3 pm, get ready to
church..the mass will be at 4 in the afternoon and it will be the last english mass for the day.

at around 330pm, i was already at the church...i do that so that i will be able to grab a seat near the door to get some fresh air..although it is raining at that time..

for several months that i have been going to the church..i would usually see kids helping drivers get a good parking space since the area does not have quite large space to accomodate all churh goers who have cars...

it was only that afternoon that i have come to observe one child who are helping drivers and are "hoping" for some penny for the service..hoping is the term because not all are giving him something..

the kid was there, sitting, waiting for cars to arrive..signal them for a good parking space...some follow, some do not; some pay while other just ignore them..

i was thinking that those people are a bit cruel..they seem to use the boy's help and not giving them something in return..it coud be the boy's way of helping his parents for their food..it could be a boys way of having extra allowance for school...but on the other side, the money might be used on drugs or alcoholic drinks..

if i would see some beggars, i would actually would want to help them..if i could see somebody especially a kid who is working i would salute them...but hopefully, those money they are earning would really go to their education or food or for their family....


just some thoughts...

directly proportional

july is near...and what we are actually excited of?

the increase in the salary which is based on our merit rating and the across the
board increase. so far the company had it for the two years i have been here.

our first ATB(Across the Board) was 1000 then the second one is the same as the
previous one. for the third one, we are expection for hopefully the same
amount.. we are hoping that it will be higher but not lower ;)
so that was 2000 increase from the first pay that we are offered to...

but, it seems that i still find it hard to save..and still, no savings yet...
why? because i think that my expenses is directly proportional to what i am
spending...

before, i stayed at a place and i am paying 1000 for the rent..now, its already
1500 or make it 2000 since my sis is staying with me....

before, i would usually spend 300-600 for the prepaid loads...but now, i am
paying at least 800 for my phone bill or even more if i exceeded my limit which by
the way usually happens.

before, on groceries and other shoppings i might spend, several hundreds or
thousand...now, same amount but sometimes its every week or twice a
week...why? courtesy of credit cards...and i am not only paying for what i have
bought but also for the finance charges...cool huh :)

something makes sense huh! the more we are paid for, the more we are spending
too...

noticed people who makes little than us but still managed to make it through
without credit cards and postpaid telephone lines...and even savings on their
account....because they knew that they will not be able to manage to pay for all
those expenses..

and us who are earning quite enough or more than enough, managed to apply
for several credit cards(not just one), to apply for several telephone lines, even
cable, internet connections or dsl lines, and lots of other extra stuffs...
well, that's how it works....

the more people who earns more, the more companies giving employments, the
more people who earns, the more stuffs availabe to spent on...

and for me...still no savings..and still growing expenses..

this is something to think about :)

money....people..relationship...

my sister arrived here sunday afternoon...we were suppose to meet with my high school friend at ayala..

been wanting to eat pizza so i brought her at ratsky where they are having eat all you can pizza and drink all you can on softdrinks or ice tea..

she arrived at bacolod from work in manila a couple of weeks or month ago, had some rest at home and decided to stay here with me in cebu and look for job...trying her luck in different call centers here :)

we had a lot of patching up to do and we talked for almost two hours at ratsky...

we talked about a lot of things and after seeing those girls who are into old foreigners at ratsky...until we discussed about this...

a lot of people right now are really into marrying somebody who is capable or stable enough to provide for the family...but there are some who wanted to really become millionaires..they do not care, who they are stepping into, who they are marrying and what they look like just to become rich..

i remembered one time my cousin said that she really wanted to have an overseas or a "seaman" as a husband. i told her that they cant be trusted(i'm not talking generally here) and its sad to live a life having someone you love away from you. and she told me, that's ok, i am receiving dollars anyway.

and i said, ok...huh!?! i mean its that easy for them? they married somebody to have someone beside you forever ayt? just like the song says:(changed some part lang ;) )

will make you smile, whenever your sad

carry you around if your arthritis is bad

all i wanna do is grow old with you..

i think people right now are just after the security and stability with their lives. but cant women excel and be successful and be stable and be rich by herself?

well, i guess it is just a matter of principle...a matter of determination, and i would add, a matter of luck.
ahaha...one is very lucky if he found someone they love and someone who loves them in return of course to be financially stable. someone who could give them all the luxuries in life...

as for me, i wanna be successful, and happy and contented. and i am going to do that not by looking for someone who is rich enough to provide all my needs and the luxuries in life but by having someone besideme and we will together build a future stable for our family ;)

prejudice

There is a new series in the office and it is called Numb3rs.

The series is about a family composed of the father and his two sons. The eldest works in the FBI and the youngest works as a teacher and is a mathematician. He works with applied mathematics and is helping his brother solving crimes through math..The series concentrates on the work of the eldest son that is solving crimes :)

One nice episode i have seen is Identity crisis.

The story is about a certain crime that happens to have a similarity to the previous crime they have solved. Don who is the eldest son thought that he had a mistake on convicting a person and imprisoning him. But he is sure that at that previous crime he had the killer. The eye witness pointed to the person, the suspect said that it was him who did the crime and a lot of other evidences..He asked again for the help of his brother to look at the statistics or probability that he might have mistaken.

Anyways, Don's brother, Charlie, thought that maybe the eye witness pointed to the wrong killer since the FBI's way of helping the witness identify the killer is through giving them a series of pictures...He illustrated his idea in such a way that he first listed numbers from 1 to 6. Then he let Terry, another FBI, choose a number for three times...All numbers that Terry picked were all from 1 to 6. So he asked Terry why did she picked numbers from 1 to 6 when he did not say that she would pick from 1 to 6. So Terry assuming that before she was told to pick a number she have seen Charlie listing those numbers, subconsciously choose numbers within that range. And so that is what happens to the witnesses to. They will not choose somebody who is not among the list, but instead would choose among the list even if the one in the list is not the actual person but instead somebody who looks like that person...unless the witness really knows the killer..

The point that Charlie raised is actually correct... i just realized this while doing this blog that we had this discussion on our Workshop several months ago...

Sometimes we tend to look at the problem and concentrating on it, or to a certain flaw in solving something and not able to notice that it is not actually the root cause...and it caused delay, disappointments...

And later on realized that what we are looking at is not actually the problem...

working and living alone

i am sooooo sleepy...

to wake myself up i went to the pantry to wash my cup and chopstick and to drink cold water. On our pantry, we can see the it park where our office is located. I have seen three teens in their uniform playing in the park.. then i realized that it is actually school time once again..

the disadvantage of working and living away from the family where all you could see are people busy going to the office. I seldom go to the office early and the ones i would usually meet in the jeepney are working people.. i think that is the main reason why i never realized that it is schooltime once again..

but wait, i remembered i went to ayala and they had a back-to-school sale..wasnt that something enough to remind that its school time once again? my sister asked from me money for her books last time...another reminder but still, i forgot..

or simply, i no longer go to school and it no longer matters to me...i would forget when is the time of the year when i would worry what to pay for enrollment..to buy some books..get excited to have the allowance and meet classmates :)

well, life has to move one..and so do i :D

left behind....

I think it is always those who were left behind who are feeling sad and sorry...

one of the closest person i had in the office is going to leave..finally..after several days or weeks or months of preparation or plans...

he has been so nice to me...so frank yet so good and honest :)

never i met a person who is so sensitive and passionate about lots of stuff...

he told me one about his plan, i suddenly felt sad about it but at the same time i was very happy for him...

and he finally told me the news that he is definitely leaving..and that would be in a month's time..

it was so sad...

aside from the fact that i would surely miss him, i also knew that it doest feel good to be left behind..

its bad that they would finally leave and explore new adventures while i am stuck into something for so long...when in fact i also wanted to leave and explore a new world...

but i am really so happy for him...i know there have been problems or hindrance to his plans before but finally those were all over...he is going to explore a certainly new world and a whole new kind of independence,...

i am pretty sure he is excited and at the same time very happy for the opportunity..

all i could say to him is good luck and god bless..

and dont forget to always smile still :)

t0pS

last night was my first time to visit Tops..

it was actually just Top on the signboard but well, everybody calls it tops.. :)

the place is so nice...

it is overlooking the city...

the plan was actually to grant one of our batchmate who happens to celebrate her birthday yesterday...we plannned of surprising "them" sine there are two of them who celebrated their birthdays...

we blindfolded them, from the office up to the tops...

when we reached the place, we surprised them....

that was really fun!! and i was so happy since that was the first time i went to the place :)

we had dinner afterwards... 

then pictures :D

my sister who have been here for two days was able to visit tops..and me? 

this is my first time after what? two years :D

then drinking and talking...

singing and laughing :D

the fun of being in the aprilfools :D

thanks guys!! :)

palipas oras

i am not in the mood to work today..
i knw i got a lot of things to do..but hey, i cant proceed with just doin somethin without my superiors permission...they are busy right now and i am not really in the mood to work..
anyways, today is my office mate's birthday..actually two of my batch mates..
the one is a girl who is very close to me..and the other one is a boy..someone who has been very helpful.. :)
the tradition in the office is that, everytime there is birthday celebrants is they would treat us, their friends or group mates...we would all eat at the pantry during snack time :)

Happy Birthday Ate anne and Aldiones !! :)